Hello! n_n
I know I have been working almost every day and have lesser time to accompany you but I’ve tried my best to arrange my schedule so I can go home as early as possible to meet you. And hor, you realise I call you most of the time? :/ . actually, you can call me too you know? like anytime, anywhere.. whenever you miss me or wanna hear my voice.. Or maybe, just bored. (: I’m here you know.. even though I’m working ~~~ but I can listen to phone ah. and I typed super long for this post. but I accidentally typed an arrow without knowing. so it’s deleted automatically. Zzz. just wanna say that you can call me anytime bcos im always here. (:

i accidentally deleted your post..

like i said.. i already state my stand already. what you say is like you’re not even reading what im saying.. you totally wont listen to me.. i say i cannot understand what you’re going through, not i dont want to. why you so stubborn? the only reason you dont wanna give me a listen is just to get back at me?

i dont see what she is doing. i do.t care also. she can do whatever the fuck she wants, she can go fuck a thousand strangers, i wont even give it a second thought. but you’re nit picking everything.
i talk about your dad so what? im raising an example that is logical. if you would acually stop and think.about for 1 second, you would probably realize im not insulting or provoking you. why did you say “you talk about my dad? fine”. honestly, that doesnt even make any sense at all. you’re angry just because i say “your dad” ?

put this incident aside.. is that how you wanna talk to me? i kNow if tomorrow is the end of the world i would not waste time quarreling. i wanna spend quality time with you and stuff but.. i dont see how i can even see you in person.. you’re so angry and all, i think we will just fight.. i dun get you.

before you say anything at all. just answer this question, what can i do to make you feel better? i’ll do it.

I don’t know how we can solve this. it’s gonna go on forever if she’s gonna keep contact you. maybe everything I said before its all 气话. I just don’t know how to handle such things. but all I know is, I felt like my heart was tore apart and this feeling is repeating every single time I see our videos and pictures and your messages. Can we stop fighting? I really cannot take it alrdy. I actually went to buy ciggarettes this afternoon. I didn’t manage to get one bcos I didn’t have the courage in the end. I think of cutting myself but I wouldn’t want to be someone I myself hate. suiciding is selfish. then the only choice is to drink drink and drink. staying out late at night now bcos idw my mum to see my face.. what else can I do? tell me what to do instead.

Tingting,

I know you’re a fair person. You’re a Libra. and you treat people nice if their nice to you, treat them bad if they are hostile or mean.
About this incident, my intentions were to tell you she dropped by to pick up her orders. thats all.. but you’re over reacting and calling her names. im really not defending her. when i say look at yourself, dont you see that you’re calling her bitch for no reason? i know you will 胡思乱想, thinking she is scheming something or trying to get close.. if i were you i would too. but isn’t it normal? i know you can keep your cool if you want to, and maybe complain to me and 讨抱抱 and stuff.

i hope you do see what i mean. i dont like to hear you say things like “that bitch trying to steal my bf” or “going behind my back”..

if its me like this how would you feel? can you imagine i go and beat nicholas up if he sms you? i can be that impulsive. and thats how much im uncomfortable with him. den you will tell me, “hes just a friend and he is talking about this girl he likes..”. but when i tell you shes just picking her orders and not even chatting with me, you’re still so agitated. didn’t you hate that your father always say wanna beat ppl up for you? didnt you also scold him for that? i think the reason why im angry with you, is the same as the reason why you will be angry with your dad if he just go and beat ppl up. although you’re not getting.violent, you’re getting verbally abusive.. on top of all of these, you’re just imagining all of what she is doing too. do you know that reverse psychologically, that means if you talk to your ex.. what you worry doreen does is what you would be doing..

i cannot understand how you feel about this right now. but i can imagine you’re very sad now because i cannot stand in your shoes. im really sorry.. i want to.make it up and talk to you and comfort you but you wont even talk to me.. on top of all that, your tweets stabs me right in the chest. how is it that i already don’t care about her, and already long over, but she is still in our way? :(

im sorry i cant tolerate this. this kind of behavior gets on my nerves like the plate scratching sound. and i just get more and more upset when you wont listen to me. im sorry i cannot comfort you when you’re upset about this. but i hope you can understand how i feel.

i still we can spend our time together tomorrow. didnt we planned to go out? i love you baby..

Please rest well and drink plenty of water okay? see you like that very heart pain.. ): .
I love you muacks muacks. I’ll go find you tonight okay? ^^

Baby, sorry oh! just now I throw temper bcos wasn’t in a good mood due to the stupid boss.. you bu shu fu I still like that. Dui bu qiiii. ): .
I really had enough of guys. like wtf!! too kuazhang alrdy. AN OLD MAN TRYING TO JIO ME SRSLY?! My mum say ask him pee one pool of pee then use it to see his own looks. ( chinese phrase) . cannot take it. Baby, you must help me block okay. ): i’m sorry that I replied him bcos I didn’t think so much mah. he’s just a IT guy, didn’t know he got motive.. Next time I won’t text any strangers alrdy. like guys..okay?
sorry oh, I now work 6days per week. only can take off on mon-Thursday. very little time to peii you right? I know I know but I have no choice bcos im working full time. ): Valentine’s I’m working as well oh. cause that week I’m taking off on Tuesday to travel from Msia to SG. I’ll try my best to meet you whenever I can okay? loves

I just wanna see you right now, don’t have to speak a word, just hug you tight. I love you. a lot a lot a lot ..

about yesterday, i just feel intrusive to see you on tuesday.

and i dont feel controlled. thats all.

When you suggest to meet tomorrow instead, i sian alrdy. then right after i sian, then you went like.. okay.. then i later come find you and all. it’s like bcos i sian then you come, it’s not out of your will. i don’t want make you think i sian just to control you. i just wanna meet you today. having a bad cramp, stupid manager, parents and all. i need your hug. i even mentioned in the text earlier today that i want baobao. do you even treat it seriously? or do you think that i’m just saying for the sake of saying only? You know my work sometimes end as late as 10pm or even midnight. I don’t know about my next week schedule.. what if i work 6days/week, everyday ends late. you know how hard isit for us to meet? today i free. but you’re like..that. was really disappointed. like don’t you want to see me? last time, even if you know we only can meet 5mins, you’ll still come all the way down for that precious time. nowadays..? 

yes. i’m saying you. My sacarsm? i’m always like that what?

you say other people can only see NS man every weekends, i already very good every day can see you. what are you trying to imply? that i should be satisfied as long as i can see you more than the others? is that what you meant? sorry then. i’ll never be satisfied to see you. never. if trying to meet me is so difficult, then just tell me. then i won’t expect anything from you anymore. 

I thought i’m understanding. I’m telling you this now, i thought wrong. Yes, i’m very unreasonable, very demanding and very possessive. but honestly, you gave me hope and .. again. 

oh wait, you didn’t even mention about coming to find me. sorry. i was wrong now.

i hate days like this. Spending the whole day thinking that we’ll be able to meet and out of a sudden, we can’t. It feels like being cheated. 

Baby whats wrong?
I will feel like how you do if i had a bad day or week.. but how is it that you are feel so upset/angsty so frequently? is there something i fid.wrong?

this afternoon.. i only said how about we meet tmr.. den you sian alr. okay, its logical.. but when i say i’ll go over later you turned me down. why? you want to see me but you dont? is it that you think, if i wanna go over i will go over no matter what? even if you say no?

yes, thats right. if i want to go over, i will no matter what. but you turning me down like this even though i talked nicely, makes me want to go less. i miss you baby but i dont wanna take your sarcasm after a long tiring day at work.. my head was just pounding and i needed a sleep..

i read your twitter. did something happen again? is the “you” who “joined them” me?

i know you told me you can be unreasonable, demanding and possessive. i am prepared and tolerable to far. but tell me i’ve seen your worse already? because you’re really scaring me..

i love you baby.. i’m here for you. but you wont let me be there for you. please just share what is on your mind…